Six years since that morning when I woke up from the exhausted haze of childbirth to find an actual child next to me. MY child. Forever. What a terrifying and exhilirating feeling. I remember taking off her clothes for the first time, seeing her littleness revealed, all pink and awesome. And fragile. I remember her hiccuping, how they alarmed both of us. "Should she do that?" I remember leaning over to feed her, as awkward as awkward gets. She was so patient.
But most of all I remember how small the world felt for those two days, holed up in the hospital jail. As much as we resented being there, it was also so special. No one to bother the beginnings of us knowing her, and loving her. Life was simple, special, sweet. I wish I could get a bit of that back sometimes. But I also know that it will never feel the same. It was all about that particular moment, with her, just as she was then.
Today we have a very different Sophie. No less awesome. Still so thoughtful and open, honest and beautiful. We share her with many more people, all of whom love her. Her world -our world- is a much bigger room. For that I am grateful. Happy birthday my sweet girl.
Earth Goes Round the Sun a video by ellenjohnrubicon on Flickr.
Six times.
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